The sweetheart surgeon
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
However brave I try to act in all those tough moments, there are these small things that I am shit scared of and gives me away… animals, especially dogs and cats are one of these things… have nothing against any living being… but then these can scare me to cry in public :)
I never fell ill during my childhood!!! Yeah… that’s hard to believe, but it’s true, except maybe for the illness immediately after birth… so I never had to take medicines and injections until I was like finishing school and didn’t know how to learn them then!!
…I called up my mom after all the ‘things’ that needed to be done with my leg were done and I was alright… she didn’t bother too much about whether it pained… (she knew I wouldn’t tell her even if it did…) all she remarked was ‘you must have been scared outta hell’… why do moms always know us too well?
Anyways this was to talk about the sweetheart surgeon I met in the hospital… I had met a doctor who asked me what the problem was and even before I finished talking said, ‘you people have a wrong impression about this clinic! What can I do if you have a cyst?!!!’ I just wanted to get outta that place… no way was I giving my leg there...
And then a friend fixed an appointment with this ol’ man who I met the next day and set my own rules :) I told him he was to tell me every detail of what he was gonna do before he did anything to my leg! And believe me, he actually did! He does much more complicated surgeries on an everyday basis, but then he still treated me too nice and like a very important patient even though I created a ruckus that’s hard to imagine :) and I have been visiting him every alternate day and he welcomes me like a family member and gives me a hug to say “he knows it pains”… must say, he is the sweetheart of all the doctors I have been to :) may he be blessed!
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Clutters in my mind!!!
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
I am thinking about...
all the times it can be screwed up!
I said...
I can’t do it one more time!
I want to...
do it one more time!
I wish...
I could do it one more time!
I hear…
a distant chit chat and silence everywhere!
I wonder...
what’s wrong with me right now?
I regret...
that I can’t wake up in a new profession every single day!
I am...
the eternal optimist!
I dance...
I dance and I dance… and it makes me happy!
I sing...
and wish I had learnt to do this sometime!
I cry...
many a time but to a few
I am not always...
in this grumpy mood!
I make with my hands...
click click click
I write...
whenever I feel like… whatever I feel like
I confuse...
too many things that doesn’t need a thought
I need...
peace of mind - right now
Mes bonnes amies… toujoursI was asked to do this some months back… I just felt like doing this now :)Labels: just in the mood
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Yeah
Have been reading too many blogs these days… feels like I haven’t written much… well, it is just that urge to write something… I feel like doing that when my mind is restless… when there are tons to do, want to do all of it and also want to party hard but still wanna write! I feel like I haven’t done something good for a long time… am not happy with me. I need me to be occupied. When good things happen when I don’t have time to think, I wouldn’t be too scared of screwing up… but then I wish I could learn to accept the good things without being afraid of the bad. Need to smile a lil more…
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Happy and contented!
Monday, February 26, 2007
If one long weekend wasn’t enough of bliss, I got one more of a not-so-blissful weekend off to myself and my bed! But this time it was definitely not by choice as the ignored cyst in my leg got worse and I lay at home alone and not able to move my legs… 2 doctors who scared the hell outta me for not treating this earlier, a big ruckus that I created in the hospital and a sweetheart of a surgeon were needed to set this right – but then I was so restless that one day was by far the longest I could stay in bed!
But then certain good things also do happen that got me to have a happy and ever contented peaceful sleep that I never wanted to end. Wish I wasn’t so crazy!
Thanks to the pseudo parents, the pseudo family and friends who are always there to cheer me up :)
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Just another day for my obelix!
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
There are times when I know I want to help… times when I know I understand… but its for the good that I have been advised to shut up and seems like I have screwed up every other time, so I better listen to some advise!
But then am I doing this because I understand it’s for the good or because I am hoping it’s for the good?
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I don’t know
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
…why I am writing this! Feeling restless… third post of the day… not like I am jobless, but actually came to work before 8:45 am (the earliest for this year!)… that’s because of murphy’s attraction yesterday towards me… post lunch, have been feeling like wanting to read the book in my handbag… waiting for these guys to go to cha bar… when I didn’t have any time to think, I waited desperately for a break… I spent this weekend the way I always wanted to have a break… and now I am like I want to be dead busy with work… I am restless that there isn’t enough to do and what is there to do gets stretched much more than required… the inefficient me!
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Murphy and his crush on me
I forget to bring the papers which had all of my VP’s comments that I need to incorporate yesterday… thank my good memory after a long relaxed weekend!
I take the train to Bandra in the middle of the day and then realize I haven’t taken my house keys (my owners have one which they give the maid everyday… so didn’t bother to come back)
I reach home and ring the owners bell more than 10 times… the old lady who is always at home chooses to disappear!
I come back to Bandra station and find the next fast train to be 10 mins away… take the slow train
A fast train speeds past even before I reach Dadar!
I come back and put in as much as I remember and mail across the doc to my VP – he is already left to BKC!
I have been warned by my dear colleagues that Murphy might not always come alone and might bring his whole family sometimes to visit me!
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Solitude
I was warned before I entered the bong males corner… I was threatened with all tricks… I didn’t give in… one of them is on a wedding leave and two of them are in my hometown doing I don’t know what!... and here I am sitting alone, cast away from the rest of the crowd and the rest of the world and day dreaming in office… WAKE UP!
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A Friday at home
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Feels weird to actually not go to work on a Friday! What’s wrong with me?
Slept like I usually sleep, read a book, met sim for café and we both shopped like crazy (wot else do two gals do?), read a lot of blogs, called some good friends, watched coffee with karan, tried heating up some instant dish for dinner… am sure I am the only one who can mess up even these instant food, anyways, didn’t like it much… but then lost my appetite too :(
Felt good to go on my shopping expedition after a long time :) and at last, stopped myself from buying more weekend wear and actually bought some formal shirts!! I like formal wear but then I don’t like it being forced on me… I should be allowed to wear what I feel like wearing everyday! Haven’t wore salwars in a real long time… most of them don’t fit me anymore and have been given away… a wardrobe expansion is soon to come.
Café time discussion… the loss of that zeal to be better, when at last the home accepts that their gal is not like the rest, we throw them a surprise once again that we are still women! What’s with women like us who want to be different and still want to have that peaceful life?
Better described by my dear friend who will join me soon in the maximum city…I want to dance… I mean, not like the party dancing that I still do once in a while… I want to perform… or at least, learn in a proper workshop… the last time I was home, I watched the choreo night at Saarang (the IIT-Madras cultural fest) where my sis was dancing and I was reminded of the dance workshop at BITS, the only thing I did in my last semester on campus :) loved every moment of it and want to do something like that again!
Life seems pretty good right now… when everything is good, why do I have this fear that something might go wrong??
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Just Love
Monday, February 12, 2007
Do I always need to know why I do what I do?
Anyways, just felt like giving some time and adorning my second love and wish I could complete it in one go… but then need to get back to this on a later day when I get back the enthusiasm that I had a few hours ago.
I don’t know what the text below the title means… right now I haven’t figured out what to write there and I like the one written there!
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Another one
Thursday, February 08, 2007
… of those days when I don’t know whether I love silence or if I need to talk all night!
Am tired, flight got delayed, flight got cancelled, didn’t get a proper room to stay, no dinner and horrible customer service by Jet airways… got as bugged as possible…
got a luxurious room to stay and can have a good night’s sleep before I catch the rescheduled flight tomorrow morning, but I just cant seem to get that good mood back :(
wish you were here…
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Why do I blog?
Friday, February 02, 2007
The post is the result of this simple question posed to me by a friend… just thinking aloud.
The concept of a blog was introduced to me during my final few days at Infy when I started reading a few to get to know abt ISB and to-be batchmates. And it took more than a month after joining b-school for me to start writing.
I don’t think I was a regular blog reader when I wasn’t writing. I don’t think I am one right now. But when I used to write regularly, I used to read regularly.
Started of as a substitute for those scribbled diary entries in those big notebooks which had more blank pages and Sachin’s statistics than anything about me! (I still have them :) )
I can’t say that I don’t write for others to read… ‘coz I marketed this space by adding it to my signature all thro’ my b-school days. And it does feel good when someone identifies me because of my blog.
But then if I think of all the people who read my blog and make opinions about me and the way I think, I wouldn’t write a line out here. When I write, I tell myself I am not answerable to anyone and can write anysense or nonsense here and all that matters is what I feel when I post it or read it again after a few days or months later :) yeah, there have been times when I have actually read thro’ lengths of my posts to just revive a few memories and also admire my own writing a few times!
I sometimes do wish I could write about everything and keep it an open book… don’t think that would ever happen. What else are friends for?
An answer to the subject of this post: The space where I think aloud, assuming there is no one around and not looking for an answer to everything! Just a substitute for a piece of paper and sometimes for a friend’s ear.
The different people who make a difference:
Some of my very good friends who have known me much before this space was born but refuse to read here. Would love them to visit sometimes, though I know they are the ones to best understand that the blog me and the real me are the same.
Many of my friends who do read my blog and get to know more about me because they visit the space. I know these people pretty well and have no qualms in them knowing me any better ‘coz they know the real me more than the blog me.
The acquaintances who got to know my blog too and so pop out a few times to keep in touch.
A few people who have been reading me, know the blog me and suddenly they get to know the real me. I think I must be very different to them. I don’t know and do I wish I knew?
A few / many unassuming readers who know me through my blog and I don’t know them… my sitemeter tells me they are there and I am just happy with that info alone. Just gives me the gladness that there should be something interesting I still write for that counter to tick.
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