Friday, June 29, 2007
Have read more than 100 posts today… haven’t read much lately… so more than 100 pending… and a few more blogs to explore and add… much later!
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Sunday, June 24, 2007
Its Saturday evening… the best time of the week :)
Have been sleeping, eating and reading all day! And now is the time to host the grand movie marathon… and I seem to be getting back to the Thursday mood.
Its pouring outside… and the taxis have disappeared once again… the crowd is difficult to pull in!
The Saturday peace being disrupted by the leaking house, the lady who lives downstairs and the non stop ringing of the bells.
The missed call from the pay masters… time to change my weekend plans and time for some confrontations. The bruised soul did get some reprise and so it still isn’t complaining.
Paulo Coelho left me a lil bliss thro the ‘By the river piedra I sat down and wept’.
A smile thro a phone call from a friend who I thought had disowned me!
And I am numb to enjoy the musical state around me.
Have been sleeping, eating and reading all day! And now is the time to host the grand movie marathon… and I seem to be getting back to the Thursday mood.
Its pouring outside… and the taxis have disappeared once again… the crowd is difficult to pull in!
The Saturday peace being disrupted by the leaking house, the lady who lives downstairs and the non stop ringing of the bells.
The missed call from the pay masters… time to change my weekend plans and time for some confrontations. The bruised soul did get some reprise and so it still isn’t complaining.
Paulo Coelho left me a lil bliss thro the ‘By the river piedra I sat down and wept’.
A smile thro a phone call from a friend who I thought had disowned me!
And I am numb to enjoy the musical state around me.
Labels: just in the mood
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Someone with no hands and no legs… saw him twice right outside my building… his world is just the 10 steps around that area where he sleeps and people are considerate to get him food from his every day begging.
A set of families with kids sleeping peacefully on the pavement opposite to the Mahalakshmi station… 8.30 pm peak traffic time… horns blazing… the dad snoring… is everyone alive?
A set of families with kids sleeping peacefully on the pavement opposite to the Mahalakshmi station… 8.30 pm peak traffic time… horns blazing… the dad snoring… is everyone alive?
Labels: off the track, people
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
When I was 6 months into my job and just 2 months into actually starting to work… I had one of the most memorable days! A mobile lost, a flight missed, the lost cab and my grand entrance to the closing meeting…
A mail I wrote that day…
“Am dead!
Have missed my flight... with all the documents and printouts in my bag!! Am so scared right now... meeting with executive director & some 4 other heads :( i worked so much for this deal... i dont want it to get screwed :( am sure A is not gonna work with me again and I am gonna have such a bad name for this... am scared to walk into that meeting room now.
and I dont have my mobile... left it in the taxi yest night and had to call the taxi driver at 2 am n speak in my broken hindi to leave it with drunk N who was in office... and had to download some alarm clock from the internet to wake me up!
sitting in the airport n waiting for the next flight now... I wish I cud restart this day”
was reminded of this ‘coz the recipient of the mail sent it back to me :)
A mail I wrote that day…
“Am dead!
Have missed my flight... with all the documents and printouts in my bag!! Am so scared right now... meeting with executive director & some 4 other heads :( i worked so much for this deal... i dont want it to get screwed :( am sure A is not gonna work with me again and I am gonna have such a bad name for this... am scared to walk into that meeting room now.
and I dont have my mobile... left it in the taxi yest night and had to call the taxi driver at 2 am n speak in my broken hindi to leave it with drunk N who was in office... and had to download some alarm clock from the internet to wake me up!
sitting in the airport n waiting for the next flight now... I wish I cud restart this day”
was reminded of this ‘coz the recipient of the mail sent it back to me :)
Labels: primetime
Monday, June 18, 2007
It feels good to finish a book… especially when it is after another failed attempt at the Suitable Boy… Catcher in the Rye was as unstructured as it could get… a 200 pager… without a theme… not my kinds… and I still liked it when I finished it.
It feels good to watch a tam movie… especially when it is in Mumbai… and is a Rajnikanth movie… Sivaji… even though I am not a big fan of his movies… even though I have never watched any of his movies in the first 2 months of release!... even though I deliberately missed his last one… even though he is acting with a heroine younger than his daughter!... even though the first half was too boring and the second half was as illogical and hilarious as it could get… it just feels good to watch his movie for the style, for the music, for the stunts… just for the applause that his presence gets… thanks to the musician, the dance master, the stunts master, the script writer and everyone else who does the work when he just marks his existence on screen !
(As much as I hated Rajni’s costumes in the movie, I loved shreya’s! Would I get hers in exchange for mine? – well, I should make an attempt to fit into them too!)
It feels good to shop… when I am alone and don’t know what to buy and its raining outside and all I need is to feel good… the credit card is crying and I just felt good with my new found footwear :)
It feels good to watch a tam movie… especially when it is in Mumbai… and is a Rajnikanth movie… Sivaji… even though I am not a big fan of his movies… even though I have never watched any of his movies in the first 2 months of release!... even though I deliberately missed his last one… even though he is acting with a heroine younger than his daughter!... even though the first half was too boring and the second half was as illogical and hilarious as it could get… it just feels good to watch his movie for the style, for the music, for the stunts… just for the applause that his presence gets… thanks to the musician, the dance master, the stunts master, the script writer and everyone else who does the work when he just marks his existence on screen !
(As much as I hated Rajni’s costumes in the movie, I loved shreya’s! Would I get hers in exchange for mine? – well, I should make an attempt to fit into them too!)
It feels good to shop… when I am alone and don’t know what to buy and its raining outside and all I need is to feel good… the credit card is crying and I just felt good with my new found footwear :)
Labels: the brighter side
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Japs are in and out… and I have got some time to breathe
Breathe I do too fast… and then be 13 scared than I am supposed to
Morning comes and they do… much before me
And I am still the darling… to myself and the lovely organization around me
Japs are in and out… and I have got some time to breathe
Take them to the door, the elevator and the car… I do
And rush to relish the food… with people who matter
They do make a difference… yes, they still do!
Japs are in and out… and I have got some time to breathe
But breathe I do… before the vice ones catch me again
I get calls… I get work… and I continue running all along
...waiting for the Friday… hoping it never does.
Breathe I do too fast… and then be 13 scared than I am supposed to
Morning comes and they do… much before me
And I am still the darling… to myself and the lovely organization around me
Japs are in and out… and I have got some time to breathe
Take them to the door, the elevator and the car… I do
And rush to relish the food… with people who matter
They do make a difference… yes, they still do!
Japs are in and out… and I have got some time to breathe
But breathe I do… before the vice ones catch me again
I get calls… I get work… and I continue running all along
...waiting for the Friday… hoping it never does.
Labels: a bad attempt at poetry
Saturday, June 09, 2007
CCD, the choco frappe, the sea side and the walk…
Dominoes, the thin crusts and the hunger driven souls…
Pizza Hut, the mushroom pasta, the veggie supreme and the 2 pepsis - w and w/o ice
Mcdonalds, the burgers, the cones and those favorite tables…
Ruby Tuesday, the pastas, the salad and the inox nearby…
Subway, Italian BMT, chicken n turkey ham and my hunger un-appeased…
Inox, pop corns, cokes, cup corn and water – the smoke break and the corner seats…
Classic, Pav bhajjis, curd rice, the butter naans with the dals - with its open space and the CCD next door…
And the non-stop chatters in between :)
Dominoes, the thin crusts and the hunger driven souls…
Pizza Hut, the mushroom pasta, the veggie supreme and the 2 pepsis - w and w/o ice
Mcdonalds, the burgers, the cones and those favorite tables…
Ruby Tuesday, the pastas, the salad and the inox nearby…
Subway, Italian BMT, chicken n turkey ham and my hunger un-appeased…
Inox, pop corns, cokes, cup corn and water – the smoke break and the corner seats…
Classic, Pav bhajjis, curd rice, the butter naans with the dals - with its open space and the CCD next door…
And the non-stop chatters in between :)
Labels: off the track, the brighter side
Friday, June 08, 2007
The recent attrition in office has again left me wondering about how people dependant I am. After the bonus session in late April, it was pretty evident that all senior associates were on the look out and so most of the quitting didn’t really come as a surprise… but then the fact of the truth does leave me depressed… I will miss them and all the fun and the liveliness they brought to the floor.
I realized over the last few days that the most shocking (for lack of better word) of all was M quitting. Over the past few months he had spoken to me more than a couple of times on why I should stay here… I had asked him about his plans and he said he would not quit from here for another investment bank. He also told me about his plans here… & I guess truthfully I got very comfortable staying here with him around… I knew I would lookout but would always have the back up option as a very secure one.
He gave me the independence to work the way I wanted… He was my knowledge store and I executed based on that knowledge. He appreciated my work and made sure I was well compensated for it. I needed someone to tell me where I was going in this industry and he talked about it without me asking for it. He told me how I should and would be guided the way his boss did 8 years back.
… & I thought we made a good team!
And I heard he put his papers… and he confirmed that for me! I felt like the little child who realized that the toy she was shown was never meant to be hers. It was just a show piece which was to be taken away someday. And unfortunately, she was angry with the toy because she thought she had the right to do so, but then the toy was never really hers, was it?
I thought I was the only person who was feeling let down and today I found one more soul in office who felt the same.
And without me asking for it, people have been giving me tons of advice on whether I should stay / move / move with him!
I realized over the last few days that the most shocking (for lack of better word) of all was M quitting. Over the past few months he had spoken to me more than a couple of times on why I should stay here… I had asked him about his plans and he said he would not quit from here for another investment bank. He also told me about his plans here… & I guess truthfully I got very comfortable staying here with him around… I knew I would lookout but would always have the back up option as a very secure one.
He gave me the independence to work the way I wanted… He was my knowledge store and I executed based on that knowledge. He appreciated my work and made sure I was well compensated for it. I needed someone to tell me where I was going in this industry and he talked about it without me asking for it. He told me how I should and would be guided the way his boss did 8 years back.
… & I thought we made a good team!
And I heard he put his papers… and he confirmed that for me! I felt like the little child who realized that the toy she was shown was never meant to be hers. It was just a show piece which was to be taken away someday. And unfortunately, she was angry with the toy because she thought she had the right to do so, but then the toy was never really hers, was it?
I thought I was the only person who was feeling let down and today I found one more soul in office who felt the same.
And without me asking for it, people have been giving me tons of advice on whether I should stay / move / move with him!
Labels: people
Time for very serious thinking (& action)
Sunday, June 03, 2007
The two people in my organization who mattered the most to me have put in their papers :(
Started the offsite hearing about the senior associate and friend – who had the patience to teach me most of what I know in investment banking.
Ending the offsite right now, confirming from his own words about the vice president – who was a mentor and the perfect boss to work for :(
I am hanging my confused thoughts… I am not liking the feeling.
I am hanging my confused thoughts… I am not liking the feeling.
Labels: just in the mood, people
… after playing with the waves and getting completely wet in the baga beach
… after riding the activa in the almost empty n perfect roads of Goa in the middle of the night for more than an hour
… after the 35 min phone call to make my almost perfect evening more perfect
… after the 30 min waterfall shower in the resort bathroom I have fallen in love with :)
… while feeling like I am having the near perfect life :)
… after riding the activa in the almost empty n perfect roads of Goa in the middle of the night for more than an hour
… after the 35 min phone call to make my almost perfect evening more perfect
… after the 30 min waterfall shower in the resort bathroom I have fallen in love with :)
… while feeling like I am having the near perfect life :)
Labels: the brighter side